Well I haven’t written anything for a while now, but now I am. What happened recently, of yeah I’m going to Mount St. Mary’s next year and I received a 28 thousand scholarship, so that’s good. Oh yeah Matt Cooper, hopefully if he gets in, would prolly be my roommate, Crazy!  Last week the St. John’s Rugby team jus had their first game and obviously we won. We fought against the Exiles club who had players that claimed they were 16, but looked 30. It was no problem for me tho cuz I jus ran over them gaining a lot of yards. We have another game tomorrow against Nova, which is suppose to be a little better than the Exiles, but it won’t be a problem for “The Bear.”

The reason why don’t have a jersey in this picture is because when I was trading my jersey with Joe Briggs, some Gonzaga kid tackled me.

This is what happens when u run towards me, you get hit.

I’m the number 2 trying to help a teammate out

You can’t get through me

Organized sport my ass!

Ur Done!

Well jus recovered from my surgery. Stupid Holy Cross people giving me the wrong diagnosis that almost made me really messed up. Well anyways I’ve started walking straight starting on Friday so that’s good and I think I’m ready for school. I’m jus not ready to do all the work I’ve missed these past 2 weeks. Lost 15 pounds my ideal weight for wrestling season, but I can’t do too physical sports for a few months to prevent me from getting hurt, so I guess no more Asian Invasion. Was so excited to pick my entrance song, man what luck. Well enough of this c you guys.

Well I just missed two days of school do to my abdominal pain. Sunday morning after mass I started having this sharp pain in my esophagus. The pain was caused by hyper acidity since I barely ate for 3 days. Then Monday morning the pain in my esophagus stopped, but I started having this sharp cramping pain in my lower right quadrant. Later that night the pain became unbearable so I was rushed to the Holy Cross ER. My dad was so scared that we got lost on our way there, which was weird cuz the hospital is like 3 min from my house. Well when we got there they tested me for 4 hours. The doctor said that it might have been appendicitis or there was something wrong with my liver so they did more testing. When we got the results back everything was normal except for my white blood cell count. It was a little abnormal so there were more testing. After all the testing the doctor said something about a pinched nerve or something. So now I can barely walk do to the pain. Oh yeah the Holy Cross ER is nothing like the show.  

To question oneself is in our nature

Too many times we are afraid of the answer

The answer of what we really are

We decent into darkness without knowing it

We fail to realize that we barely know ourselves

We can’t lose control of ourselves

Because we can’t lose something we never had

Often relying on others to tell us how we feel

We lost connection of our emotions

Who we are is not present

Because we choose to be someone else

We can’t accept ourselves because others can’t accept us

Disrespecting our body to feel pleasure, to feel ecstasy 

Who we are is not who others think we are

We are what we are and no one can change that

We can’t take care of ourselves so don’t even try

Machines have the ability to be fixed when broken

We can never be fixed for we refuse to accept our imperfections

So why even bother